Shallow waters……
I push myself to do things, especially new things. Sometimes too hard. There are shallow waters in this world, you can see directly to the bottom and pick out the plants and life that live in a watery world. Sometimes murky, not able to see, others times clear and...
Five hundred miles away from home……
I was covering a shift in a detox center one evening and it was pretty much a typical crazy night. People being brought in by State Patrol for DUI's, public drunkenness, fights, rehab send backs, people rejected from hospitals...a typical revolving door. A young man...
My Grandparents are sweet like sugar…..
A friend of mine is so full of love and happiness right now, appreciating all his blessings, his small children, his beautiful wife. He has a good life, a good job and more importantly, he knows what is important. Another friend, equally happy and so appreciative of...
A Miraculous Leap of Faith…..
She told me to jump, so I did. Letting go of negative and toxic relationships can take a leap of faith, especially when we know we absolutely HAVE to walk away from it, but just cannot seem to take the first step. I have been wrapped up in friendships and a previous...
Floating On a Feather of Discontent
I will survive but never heal. In grieving a hard loss and traumatic experience, as I am, I will not heal. I know this and have come to peace with it. I no longer push myself into a timeline of “getting better”. I do not constantly search through the symptoms and...
Dirty Tricks and Human Touch….
Human touch is one of the most treasured and basic of needs. It is powerful, and a touch can lengthen your life, improve your physical and mental well-being, and even make you smarter. Human touch is also one of the most controversial things we face in friendships and...
Oh Baby, Baby, It’s a Wild World
My husband is my everything. And as I get older, this becomes increasingly more and more a true statement. He is my foundation. He is, to me, like the dirt is to a plant. When I wilt, he holds me up. He feeds me, he supports me, he admires my beauty. He is my...
The Attitude Project
I refer to myself as a project in progress. A deeply complex one. What rises to the surface is where the project becomes either difficult or easy. My attitude takes hold of how the day will play out, what I will notice and what I will ignore. I am a reality TV junkie,...
Rainbows & Random Thoughts
A lot of us will never know why. The expectation that we will find an explanation has passed for some of us, but for others it is on the surface, and raw. There might come a day for you, like it did for me, when the clear realization forces the admittance that there...
When Someone Dies
What happens when someone dies? We become sad. We mourn, we wish they were still here, we feel cheated, guilty, angry, and sometimes even stuck in the "I cannot go on" phase. But what else happens? What is that "thing" that happens to us when we lose someone in our...
Dragons and Alligators Amongst Us
Dragons and Alligators Amongst Us Leslie Beery “A certain darkness is needed to see the stars” I am a piece of energy that connects to other electric elements in life. Just like you, I also have connections, attractions, and some definite disconnects. Each connection...
Line of Demarcation
"A line defining the boundary of a buffer zone or area of limitation. A line of demarcation may also be used to define the forward limits of disputing or belligerent forces after each phase of disengagement or withdrawal has been completed." Have you ever put...
A to B
It is so hard to get from Point A to Point B on some days. Not in a miserable or sick way. More exhaustion from anticipation, or dread, or fear. Explaining this to someone who is not feeling what you are is almost impossible. Picking up life where we left it when...
How Do We Stop The Pain?
How do we stop the pain? Some use drug therapy, some abuse drugs. Some go through psychoanalysis and therapy, some talk to those around them, and others keep it inside. Some turn to spirituality as an escape and as a way to hand things over and ease the...
Isolation
Isolation Alone inside a crowded room, different among those who we were similar yesterday. Screaming but silent. Sobbing internally. ... Broken from the core and never really understanding “what next”. It is easy to polish and stand up tall for the sake of “getting...
Listen
Waking up, day after day, first thought – he is gone. Get up, work at shaking off darkness, and move feet forward. Everyday, the same. Most days able to function, able to progress. Some days, succumbing to the darkness, falling into the hole inside my heart. Pleading...
The brokenhearted, the crushed in spirit…..
I have these waves of emotion. Moments in time. Places in my life where I stop and crumble. I scream inside, "What am I doing?!" "How can anything continue on..." I reel in a panic, I want to move as far backwards as I can, to be closer to him, closer to a time with...
The Surviving Project is a project that strives to increase awareness about suicide and provide support, comfort, love, and hope to those whose lives have been forever changed by the loss of a loved one by suicide. We are survivors of what is sometimes described as the most debilitating and complicated grief known. The Surviving Project was created within one family’s journey through this grief as a way to give back to others and provide support and understanding in the days, weeks, months, and years following the loss of someone so special in their lives.
Our mission at The Surviving Project is to survive this incredible pain through helping others.