The Attitude Project

The Attitude Project

I refer to myself as a project in progress. A deeply complex one. What rises to the surface is where the project becomes either difficult or easy. My attitude takes hold of how the day will play out, what I will notice and what I will ignore. I am a reality TV junkie,...
Oh Baby, Baby, It’s a Wild World

Rainbows & Random Thoughts

A lot of us will never know why.  The expectation that we will find an explanation has passed for some of us, but for others it is on the surface, and raw. There might come a day for you, like it did for me, when the clear realization forces the admittance that there...
When Someone Dies

When Someone Dies

What happens when someone dies?  We become sad.  We mourn, we wish they were still here, we feel cheated, guilty, angry, and sometimes even stuck in the “I cannot go on” phase. But what else happens?  What is that “thing” that happens to us...
A to B

A to B

It is so hard to get from Point A to Point B on some days. Not in a miserable or sick way. More exhaustion from anticipation, or dread, or fear. Explaining this to someone who is not feeling what you are is almost impossible. Picking up life where we left it when...
How Do We Stop The Pain?

How Do We Stop The Pain?

    How do we stop the pain? Some use drug therapy, some abuse drugs. Some go through psychoanalysis and therapy, some talk to those around them, and others keep it inside. Some turn to spirituality as an escape and as a way to hand things over and ease the...
Isolation

Isolation

Isolation Alone inside a crowded room, different among those who we were similar yesterday. Screaming but silent. Sobbing internally. … Broken from the core and never really understanding “what next”. It is easy to polish and stand up tall for the sake of...
Listen

Listen

Waking up, day after day, first thought – he is gone. Get up, work at shaking off darkness, and move feet forward. Everyday, the same. Most days able to function, able to progress. Some days, succumbing to the darkness, falling into the hole inside my heart. Pleading...